Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Always getting better...

I am 30.  I remember thinking that 30 was so sophisticated, so put together, so on top of it.  WRONG.  At least, for me, it's wrong. 

Picture this:
bedhead (I have THE worst) 
+
pineapple pajama pants
+
Dr. Pepper t-shirt
+
dancing around the kitchen with a cereal spoon
=
not sophisticated.

The point is, the image I had in my mind is not the one I see when I look in the mirror. It is one that I thought I'd have perfected and trust me, nothing about me says perfect.  I'm ok with that, really.  I have, as of late, decided that one of my favorite parts of this life is to be always getting better. I fully recognize that I am not perfect, that I could always be: more patient, more thoughtful, less lazy(though, in my defense, I just feel tired), more educated, more organized, more positive, etc., etc.  At the risk of sounding Oprah-esque, I just want to be the best me, to live my best life.  And it feels good when I actually make progress in one of these areas.  Very satisfying.

I'm not at all a perfectionist, so maybe I am a improvist or quite possibly a betterist.

2 comments:

Lisa said...

You are too funny....Life isnt' about being sophisicated or perfect it's about being who you are,loving on people,living life and most importantly loving GOD and sharing his love with other people which you do EVERYDAY at work..so you are where you are supposed to be in life right now and if that means your not perfect,who cares...you can still sing with a spoon!!!!-Lisa

Amanda said...

Thanks, Lisa! I just don't want to ever stop getting better. :)